[He also wasn't having an existential crisis. He knew what he should do about his emotional roots recovering. He simply didn't have the energy to try.
...or anyone he trusted to do the torturing necessary.
They hadn't recovered much, anyway. He had time. He could still experience it a little. Just a little. Just enough to understand what he'd be giving up. Maybe enough to finally understand what Orchid had meant by there being strength in those emotions. By what Nimona had said, even. It was at least worth trying to understand. Since it compelled and influenced so many others.]
permatext;
[He also wasn't having an existential crisis. He knew what he should do about his emotional roots recovering. He simply didn't have the energy to try.
...or anyone he trusted to do the torturing necessary.
They hadn't recovered much, anyway. He had time. He could still experience it a little. Just a little. Just enough to understand what he'd be giving up. Maybe enough to finally understand what Orchid had meant by there being strength in those emotions. By what Nimona had said, even. It was at least worth trying to understand. Since it compelled and influenced so many others.]