[Of course people saw him as a monster. He killed his own father. It was one of the worst and most heinous of crimes. Almost unimaginable. For someone who could do that, there was nothing that could be taboo. And it wasn't.
G'raha had wiped out a future, but he hadn't stood over the body of his parent holding the sword that had killed them and felt nothing. He couldn't understand what made Daqiang a monster. What made all the people of Cangyanhai and Shuiyuntian see him as one.
A shuddering breath was inhaled slowly. His thumbs brushed acorss G'raha's cheeks. He didn't really want G'raha to loathe him. He wanted...
He wanted to stop hurting so much.
He wanted someone to choose him first.
He wanted- wanted- wanted-
He wanted too much. That was the real problem, wasn't it? That he wanted. That he felt. That he'd put off attempting to destroy his emotions for as long as he had. That he was still finding excuses to delay.
Another deep breath in. Out.
He pulled his head away from G'raha and opened his eyes to look down at him. He brushed hair back from the face that had brought him peace when he would have had none during the last few months.]
Okay.
[Daqiang nodded. He wasn't going to convince G'raha to run away. To hate him. He didn't need to. He just needed to stop feeling. G'raha didn't have to do anything for that.]
You... your lover does not wish you to belong to this venerable one. Has said you do not.
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G'raha had wiped out a future, but he hadn't stood over the body of his parent holding the sword that had killed them and felt nothing. He couldn't understand what made Daqiang a monster. What made all the people of Cangyanhai and Shuiyuntian see him as one.
A shuddering breath was inhaled slowly. His thumbs brushed acorss G'raha's cheeks. He didn't really want G'raha to loathe him. He wanted...
He wanted to stop hurting so much.
He wanted someone to choose him first.
He wanted- wanted- wanted-
He wanted too much. That was the real problem, wasn't it? That he wanted. That he felt. That he'd put off attempting to destroy his emotions for as long as he had. That he was still finding excuses to delay.
Another deep breath in. Out.
He pulled his head away from G'raha and opened his eyes to look down at him. He brushed hair back from the face that had brought him peace when he would have had none during the last few months.]
Okay.
[Daqiang nodded. He wasn't going to convince G'raha to run away. To hate him. He didn't need to. He just needed to stop feeling. G'raha didn't have to do anything for that.]
You... your lover does not wish you to belong to this venerable one. Has said you do not.